If we were having coffee, I will immediately gulp down my entire mug of black coffee. That accomplished, I will give you an extra tight hug for offering me a much needed break this week with this coffee date.
If we were having coffee, I will tell you that I was remembering the lies we were spoon fed as kids. All those stories about miss Koin Koin, bush baby, how I was told that if I killed a spider, I would urinate on the bed that night; and how I was convinced that if a Lizard saw my gap tooth, the tooth would not grow back. If we were having coffee, I will tell you I am working on a blog post on that.
If we were having coffee, I will tell you not to beat yourself up for changing your opinions over things you were stubborn about in the past. It’s called evolving and growing up, and that’s a good thing. Someone once said, if you are still the same person today, that you were 5 years ago, then you haven’t learnt a thing. We are constantly being influenced by experiences, and experience, is such a teacher- it molds us into be coming who we need to be, rather than who we want to be. If we were having coffee, I will also tell you, this is a pep talk I am having with myself.
If we were having coffee, I will tell you that one of my favorite thing is being with people with whom I can have a great laugh. There’s just something about letting it ripple from the pit of your stomach, and no matter how “loud” the laughter comes out, you know these are your circus, and they understand. If we were having coffee, I will tell you that if I could have a talent, it would be making people laugh, unfortunately, I don’t. But on the plus side, I will like to coerce myself into believing I am a funny person “in my head”, and that’s good enough for me. You can’t see inside my head, so let it be…
If we were having coffee, I will ask if you also feel this anxiety and fear when things are going good, because it feels like the calm before the storm. This anticipation that for things to be this good for now, the storm coming is going to be a reckless one. The constant darkness hovering above your head, a reminder that, it can’t be this good all the time, something is coming. If we were having coffee, I will tell you, it sucks.
If we were having coffee, I will tell you this before leaving. I will share with you one of my favorite quotes from “grey’s anatomy”. I’ve been using it for a long time now and it helps to get me through the day. It says, and I say to you: Never let go, Never give up, Never run, Never surrender.
Wishing you lots of love, laughter and coffee this week… may your coffee well never run dry.